Several months ago (last spring?) I hauled a bagful of old VHS tapes to Costco to transfer over to DVD that my dad had taken of Nate when he was a baby and toddler. We haven’t had a VCR in ages, so it had been ages since I’d looked at any of these tapes. They were taken on one of those first camcorders that were HUGE and had to rest on your shoulder when you recorded (remember?) Those cameras were also REALLY expensive as I recall. Like, $1200 or so, which was a whole helluva lot in 1986! The first grandchild warranted it in my dad’s eyes, and for the first few years of his life, Nate probably associated his Papa with that appendage on his shoulder. He was rarely without it!
The company that Costco sends the tapes out to for transferring sent me an email some time ago that they were unable to transfer my tapes to DVD. I was just heartsick. Yes, they’d been sitting around for nearly three decades, but they were in cases that were stored in a bookcase cabinet (that had a door). WTH? I was so disappointed that I pretty much put it out of my mind and neglected to go back to Costco to pick up my old VHS tapes. I knew I would eventually, but I wondered what the hell I would do with them, not having a VCR (and would I even be able to view them if I had one? Or if I could even get one…)
Today we went to Costco and picked them up, and it turns out that most of them DID transfer over! (Why would they have told me that they couldn’t?) There were only 2 or 3 that didn’t, but honestly, the most critical ones DID!
I’ve been sitting here watching the first DVD on my laptop with tears streaming! There’s my mom (at only 50 years old!) and her conversational voice. My old cats, Megan, Nikko, and Rhody! My ex-husband (Nate’s dad, who was a great dad until he wasn’t, but is back to being a decent one again). And there is baby Nate at about 5 months old, captured in snippets of every day life. These are a few screen grabs from the DVD:
I’m beside myself with joy! And…shock at how much time has passed. It is other-worldly to see everyone in action, just living life, focused on this baby and getting him to smile or roll over or dance his twinkle-toes in his jumper.
And to think that baby is now a husband. Mind blowing.
I swear, I could smell and feel his babyness as I watched through my tears.